Random thoughts : Memory
by Juliana

Skipping through life, expecting the expected and doing the daily grind.
Then a smell.
A sound.
A melody.
I am pulled out of my predictable and serene comfort.
Pulled backwards in an instant to the most electrifying moments of my life.
A laugh.
A scream.
A kiss.
My body freezes up and my senses go numb.
The world around is forgotten.
Falling.
Spinning.
Out of control.
The tears start to come, slowly at first then magnifying.
Tears of joy.
Or tears of pain.
Or tears of bittersweet memories that cannot be relived.
I wonder to myself what these memories mean, so powerful and disturbing.
Do I regret the past or wish I could relive it?
Do I yearn for the happiness of days gone by?
Am I weak?
Nostalgic?
Emotional?
I try to conquer these irrational emotions.
I angrily wipe away the tears.
I force the thoughts out of my head.
Forever!
For now.
For a moment.

Then suddenly, another day, a smell!
A sound!
A melody!

Another memory.